I used a throwaway to look for help when I realized I was raised in a cult… I was terrified that my wife, who was also a member, would leave me if she found out that I was doubting.
Well, I'm no espionage expert and she found out. It turned out she was feeling the same way as I was… fast forward a couple of years and we're both out of the group, and working towards freedom. There's a lot of family pressure and recrimination, but that's ok. Therapy, constant dialog and mindfulness are helping heal us.
We both ended up using the r/exjw subreddit to help figure things out, so thanks Reddit! You saved us both!